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March 2017

Why My Self Doubt Makes Me Want to Scream!

I have a lot of things to work in my life, but the major thing would be my self-doubt. 

I honestly, can barely write this post because my mind is telling me:

“No one will read it.”

“No one is going to care.” 

“Why even bother?” 

These negative thoughts, try to get the best of me and I try my hardest to ignore them but it’s hard! I get so lost in them, that my chest hurts, I have trouble breathing, and I almost want to cry. Like right now, I want to erase everything I’m typing and make up some happy-go-lucky post, that doesn’t really show what is going on in my head.

My Mind is Screaming at Me

It literally feels like my mind is screaming at me to not continue with this post today! It keeps repeating the same thing over and over. “Why bother?” “No one is going to read it.” “They aren’t going to care.” This is the ugliness of anxiety! It eats at you, tears you down, and almost makes it impossible to focus on the positive.

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My hands are shaking, my breathing is getting heavier, and my mind is clouded with darkness! I need to stop, I need to give up! NO ONE WILL CARE!

Except I will care! I cannot give up! This disorder will not consume me! It will not define who I am. I have to keep going and I will fight my demons before it gets to be too late!

Just breathe, Jessie! Take a look around, can you see what’s grounded?

My desk
The shelves
My chair

Breathe! In 4 seconds, hold 7 seconds, out 8 seconds! In 4 seconds, hold 7 seconds, out 8 seconds!

Not today anxiety! Not today! I’m gonna kick your butt and show you who is boss! You cannot control me, I control you!

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Other Post About Anxiety:

Good Thoughts to Get Rid of Bad Thoughts

10 Tips to Fight Anxiety

My Fight

 

You’ll get a happy post tomorrow! How do you deal with self-doubt? 

 

 

Good Thoughts to Get Rid of the Bad Thoughts: Helping Get Rid of the Anxiety

There are those days when I wake up and I instantly feel like the world is against me! These days are my toughest. I get up and go through my routine in zombie mode, I get dressed, don’t even bother fixing my hair, or even putting make-up on. I just get in the car and drive to work. When these feelings hit, the world can just suck it, because I don’t really care. All I want to do is crawl back into bed and stay there!

Reality

In reality though, I can’t do that. I have to get up, smile, and conquer my own mind. So, I take a deep breath and think about all the good in my life

I am healthy! Now, I may not be the skinniest girl out there, but I am healthy. I eat right, exercise occasionally, and have regular checkups!

I’m happy! I’m happily married, despite some major bumps in the road. My gorgeous niece, and awesome nephews, light up my world and always put a smile on my face. I have my dogs who make me laugh, and I have an amazing family!

I’m following through with some of my biggest dreams! Guys I wrote my first of many books! (I will have a release date soon!) I also started this blog, which is growing and becoming a passion of mine instead of just a hobby!

I’m finding my love for myself again! I used to put myself down all the time, and always doubted myself. Now, I love who I am! I put my whole heart into everything I do, and ignore my self-doubt! I’m learning, that it’s OK to be sensitive, and a little shy, and if people don’t like it or understand me then that’s their problem. I don’t have to explain myself!

So, even though I may wake up and feel the weight of the world on my chest, I’m going to be just fine! Life may be tough, but I’m a whole lot tougher!

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What good thoughts help you fight anxiety?

6 Tips For When You Bring Home a Rescue Dog!

My Rescues!

My Husband rescued our first baby, a little over a year ago. He has been the best addition to our little family! He’s even got his own little story, that you can read here. Our second baby, was a surprise to my husband. I was at the pet store picking up some new toys for our first baby, when there happened to be a mobile adoption trailer outside. I thought, it wouldn’t hurt to take a look, right? Well I ended up adopting the cutest little guy I have ever seen! He thinks he runs the place and I’m pretty certain he does!

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There was a lot that went into preparing for these guys, and I thought I would share some of the tips that helped us out a lot when we brought these babies into our lives!

6 Tips For When You Bring Home a Rescue Dog!

 

  1. Vet Visit! 
    1. No matter if you rescued a stray, or a dog from a shelter, you need to make a vet visit as soon as possible! A stray will need a complete check up, since you don’t know their past. Most shelter dogs have been to vet and will most likely be up to date on shots, but you still want to get them checked out.
  2. Microchip!
    1. The vet will check a stray for a microchip. Most won’t have one and I recommend getting one! It’s a lifesaver, in case your baby gets loose. Most shelter dogs have a chip already, but you do want to make sure you get it registered with your info!
  3. Training!
    1. (I have not mastered this with my little one yet) You definitely want to start with house breaking, unless they are already house broke then you go lucky!
    2. Basic commands
      1. sit
      2. stay
      3. lay down
  4. Necessities!
    • dog food
    • bowls for water and food
    • toys
    • treats
    • bed
    • puppy pads
    • collar/leash
    • dog tag with your info on it!
  5. Be Patient!
    1. You have no idea what your new baby’s past life was like. So, take your time and get to know each other, they will warm up to you in no time!
  6. LOVE!
    1. Lots and lots of love! Most rescues have been through horrible situations and they will need all the love you can show them!

Guess What?? I made a checklist! Now you can check things off as you get them for your baby!! (psst… it’s free just click the cute little banner)

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Book Review: Harvest of Sin By Jordan Shay and Ella Nash

NOT recommended for anyone under the age of 18!

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Hello hot as sin love triangle!

Let me introduce you to Miss Anna, a 26-year-old, Amish virgin, who is head over apron in love with an Englishman. In case you didn’t know, dating, sleeping with, or having any kind of relationship with an English person is forbidden, in the Amish community! If caught, you will be shunned from the community, or even banned!

Now say hello to the yummy and completely off-limits Englishman, Derek! Oh my ladies, make sure you fan yourself, this boy is hot! He also is very good with a certain, well… (not gonna give it away).

Being an Amish woman, at the age of 26, you should probably be married with a couple of kids by now, well not Anna, since she is lusting over Derek! So, her parents take love into their own hands and find Anna a man to marry. Bring in the sweet and incredibly handsome Caleb. He happens to be head over boots in love with Anna, but she can’t shake her feelings for Derek.

What I Liked!

The book was hot and I love me a good naughty book every once in a while! Now, naughty may be an understatement for this book, it is steamy with a capital SEX. The characters all fit well together, and it was so sweet of Caleb to help Anna and Derek be together, despite Caleb’s feelings for Anna. The naughty scenes in this book will make your cheeks red, and keep you all hot and bothered, through out every page. Anna has a big decision to make in this book. She loves her family and would do anything for them, but she also knows that the Amish community is not the place for her. If she wants to be with her hot as sin Englishman, then she knows she will have to runaway.

What I didn’t Like!

There wasn’t really a story for Derek and Anna. Every time these two got together, clothes went flying and they never really got to know each other. Caleb and Anna, on the other hand went out and got to know each other, granted not the way Caleb wanted but they still made a connection, outside of sex. Anna’s feelings throughout the book were also kinda hard to follow. She would sway one way and then the other, almost to the end of the book. There was also a scene between Caleb and Anna in the buggy that felt completely out-of-place. Why would she sleep with Caleb, when she knew she was going to leave with Derek. Just didn’t fit in the story in my opinion.

Recommend

Heck yes, I would definitely recommend this book to anyone who likes a good forbidden love story! Also, to anyone who loves a naughty book to read in private!

 

This book was offered to me by Jordan Shay and I am honored to share this review!

Where you can find the authors:

Author Jordan Shay

Author Ella Nash

Harvest of Sin Purchase

Harvest of Sin Goodreads

8 Things I Have Learned While Working With Men

I am an administrative assistant, and I also do the billing for a natural gas and oil company. That being said, I work with a lot of men. Let me tell you, men are not easy to work with and I am going to give you 8 things I have learned!

Working With Men

  1. They cuss a lot!
    1. By a lot, I mean it’s in every sentence and every story they tell. For someone who doesn’t cuss a lot, I have been noticing I am starting to cuss myself, and I don’t like it!
  2. They always need your help with something!
    1. Be prepared to stop whatever you are doing to help because they are impatient!
  3. You can explain something, in plain English, 4 or 5 times and they still won’t get it!
    1. This is where your patience comes into play, just take a deep breath and explain it again. If they don’t get it then tell them they are on their own
  4. They know every excuse out there!
    1. I have heard them all! They come up with some pretty good ones but just keep on bugging them and you’ll get what you need.  (Hopefully)
  5. You learn to be a lot tougher when dealing with men!
    1. They have some attitudes! Sometimes I want to pull out my Midol and be like you need this more than me! Don’t let them think they are bigger than you, though, make sure you show them who is the boss!
  6. You get picked on a lot!
    1. Especially if you’re short and a sweetheart. You also learn how to pick on them right back!
  7. Hunting, car/truck/ATV, talk gets old!
    1. I could probably tell you exactly what all my guys shot this year, or what they are planning on doing to their next vehicle! I try to tune them out but they get loud!
  8. Endless Entertainment!
    1. Even though they may drive me insane, they always make me laugh! Sometimes I get my own comedy show and I don’t even have to pay!

I love working with my guys! If you work with men what is one thing you have learned from working with them? Or maybe you’re a guy that works with a bunch of women, what is one thing you’ve learned from them? (Remember, be nice)