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Release date Monday 11th June

When Nicole runs into the man she’s loved since a teen at a party in London, she’s only just brave enough to go and talk to him. But will her big brother’s best friend give the geeky girl who used to follow him everywhere a second glance? Rich and powerful, James Matthews is successful in business, his personal life, however, is seriously lacking. When a chance encounter brings the woman he’s loved since he was a teen to the same party he’s attending, he can no longer resist temptation. Will the woman who has been forbidden to him his whole life believe that he wants more from her than just a one night stand?

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Two Books to Help Myself

Hey Nerdy Peeps! Guess who went book shopping? Me, I did. I got two lovely self-help books that I can’t wait to dive into. I got two books to help myself and I am going to share them with you.

Two Books to Help Myself

I’ve been slacking on myself lately, so I thought why not get some books that might be able to help. I chose You are a Badass because I hear everyone talking about it, and I chose Girl, Wash Your Face because a friend recommended it to me. Now, I’ve started listening to Girl, Wash Your Face at the gym and it’s truly amazing! I loved every second I listened to it while on the stationary bike and I was hooked. So, let me tell you more!

Girl, Wash Your Face

This book is by Rachel Hollis and even though I have just started listening to it I am already hooked. Let me tell you why. She is raw and she is real. This book will drag you in and keep you there and you won’t regret it.

Girl, Wash Your Face: Stop Believing the Lies About Who You Are So You Can Become Who You Were Meant to Be

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Founder of the lifestyle website and CEO of her own media company, Chic Media, Rachel Hollis has created an online fan base of hundreds of thousands of fans by sharing tips for living a better life while fearlessly revealing the messiness of her own. Now comes her highly anticipated first book featuring her signature combination of honesty, humor, and direct, no-nonsense advice.

Each chapter of Girl, Wash Your Face begins with a specific lie Hollis once believed that left her feeling overwhelmed, unworthy, or ready to give up. As a working mother, a former foster parent, and a woman who has dealt with insecurities about her body and relationships, she speaks with the insight and kindness of a BFF, helping women unpack the limiting mindsets that destroy their self-confidence and keep them from moving forward.

From her temporary obsession with marrying Matt Damon to a daydream involving hypnotic iguanas to her son’s request that she buy a necklace to “be like the other moms,” Hollis holds nothing back. With unflinching faith and tenacity, Hollis spurs other women to live with passion and hustle and to awaken their slumbering goals.

You are a Badass

This book has been all over the place so I decided it was time to give it a shot.

You are a Badass: How to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life

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In this refreshingly entertaining how-to guide, #1 New York Times Bestselling Author and world-traveling success coach, Jen Sincero, serves up 27 bite-sized chapters full of hilariously inspiring stories, sage advice, easy exercises, and the occasional swear word. If you’re ready to make some serious changes around here, You Are a Badass will help you: Identify and change the self-sabotaging beliefs and behaviors that stop you from getting what you want, blast past your fears so you can take big exciting risks, figure out how to make some damn money already, learn to love yourself and others, set big goals and reach them – it will basically show you how to create a life you totally love, and how to create it NOW.

By the end of You Are a Badass, you’ll understand why you are how you are, how to love what you can’t change, how to change what you don’t love, and how to use The Force to kick some serious ass.

If you’re wanting to kick some serious ass in the money department (you wanna?) and start making the kind of dinero you ain’t never made before, pre-order the next book in the series that’s all about your financial badassery: You Are a Badass at Making Money: Master the Mindset of Wealth, coming April 2017 from Viking Books.

I figured I can’t really afford the help of a psychologist, but maybe these books can help. I’m really looking forward to jumping into these books and seeing what they can help me with. If you’re looking for inexpensive help, just remember books really aren’t that expensive.

Let’s Check out My Amazon Wish List

Hey Nerdy Peeps! Let’s check out my Amazon wish list!  I have lots of books I want to share with you, so let’s get started. Remember cookies are a must when you’re reading these lovely posts.

Books Books Books

I’m going to do this by dates added, so here we go.


We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson & Thomas Ott 

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Merricat Blackwood lives on the family estate with her sister Constance and her Uncle Julian. Not long ago there were seven Blackwoods—until a fatal dose of arsenic found its way into the sugar bowl one terrible night. Acquitted of the murders, Constance has returned home, where Merricat protects her from the curiosity and hostility of the villagers. Their days pass in happy isolation until cousin Charles appears. Only Merricat can see the danger, and she must act swiftly to keep Constance from his grasp.

Lark by Tracey Porter 

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When sixteen-year-old Lark Austin is kidnapped from her Virginia hometown and left to die in a snowy forest, she leaves behind two friends who are stunned by the loss. As Lark’s former best friend, Eve can’t shake the guilt that this tragedy was somehow her fault. Meanwhile, Nyetta is haunted each night by Lark’s ghost, who comes through the bedroom window and begs Nyetta to set her soul free. Eve and Nyetta realize that Lark is trapped in limbo, and only by coming together to heal themselves will they discover why.

Backlash by Sarah Darer Littman 

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He says: You’re an awful person.
He says: What makes you think I would ever ask you out?
He says: The world would be a better place without you in it.

Lara just got told off on Facebook.

She thought that Christian liked her, that he was finally going to ask her to his school’s homecoming dance. They’ve been talking online for weeks, so what’s with the sudden change? And where does he get off saying horrible things on her wall? Even worse–are they true?

It’s been a long time since Lara’s felt this bad, this depressed, this ugly. She’s worked really hard to become pretty and happy – and make new friends after what happened in middle school.

Bree used to be best friends with overweight, depressed Lara, but constantly listening to Lara’s issues got to be too much. Secretly, Bree’s glad Christian called Lara out. Lara’s not nearly as amazing as people think. But no one realized just how far Christian’s harsh comments would push Lara. Not even Bree.

As online life collides with real life, things spiral out of control, and not just for Lara. Because when the truth starts to come together, the backlash is even more devastating than anyone could have ever imagined.


The Short Novels of John Steinbeck by John Steinbeck

(I love love love, John Steinbeck)

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Collected here for the first time in a deluxe paperback volume are six of John Steinbeck’s most widely read and beloved novels. From the tale of commitment, loneliness and hope in Of Mice and Men, to the tough yet charming portrait of people on the margins of society in Cannery Row, to The Pearl’s examination of the fallacy of the American dream, Steinbeck stories of realism, that were imbued with energy and resilience.


I had way too much fun in May adding books to my wish list!

Accidentally Married by R. R. Banks

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“Let’s get married.”

That was the last thing I had in mind.
Then I saw Holly, a curvy redhead in a tight green dress.
I knew she was mine. And I had to claim her.
I tasted her full lips and devoured every inch of her.
I woke up with a ring on my finger, but she was gone…

Our marriage was an accident, but my vows are real.
Finding her isn’t easy. And I’m not the only one who wants her.
The cartel thinks they own her, but they have no clue.
I’m not your ordinary billionaire. I’m ruthless.

I’ll protect my wife. And our baby growing inside her.

Don’t Look at Me by J.P. Grider 

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A diligent hand carved this hole in my face.
It stole my confidence, my identity, and ended my short-lived career as a broadcast journalist.
I am now unemployed. Alone. Ugly.
And expected to get over it and move on.
Go on living life as usual—as if the world doesn’t judge the grotesquely unattractive.

It’s been three years since I was kicked out of the Army for nearly killing the opposition’s militia commander with my bare hands.
I am now unemployed. Alone. Angry.
And expected to forget the nightmares that hold me hostage and move on.
Go on living life as usual—as if the world doesn’t judge a dishonorably discharged ex-soldier.

Don’t Look at Me is a modern-day Beauty and the Beast tale—reversed and twisted. Because even the ugly need a good story, and even the beautiful are ugly deep down.

Unexpected Arrivals by Stephie Walls

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It had to be a joke.

Any minute now, a van would drive up and Ashton Kutcher would slide the door open, laughing hysterically at my melodramatic performance on the front porch.

But nothing happened.

The words on the page jumbled into a toxic mess my brain refused to comprehend, much less accept.

Please consider this letter as a formal request to arrange a paternity test (DNA).

I barely remembered Chelsea Airy.

That wasn’t true—we’d gone out once, and we’d been friends for a while after. But I hadn’t heard so much as a peep from her since I’d gotten married. I’d reached out a handful of times, but she’d quit responding and fell off the face of the earth. There hadn’t been a text, an email, a phone call, not even a Facebook message, much less a stork in the last five years.

My wife could forgive a lot, but she’d never wanted children—much less another woman’s.

Running From a Rock star by Jami Albright

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She’s a good-girl control freak. He’s a bad boy in need of a clean image. Will these opposites attract or self-destruct?

Scarlett Kelly is the poster child for responsible living. Growing up as the daughter of the town floozy she’s made it her mission to be the exact opposite. So when she wakes up naked and hungover in bed with a bad-boy rock star, Scarlett bolts immediately. But she never expected him to follow her home… and tell her they’re married!

Gavin needs to repair his image or his music career will go down the tubes. He’s also just learned he has a son he never knew existed! Gavin wants to settle down, and bribing his new wife to stay married may just fit everything into place.

Scarlett agrees to the ruse to help her family’s financial troubles even though she can hardly control herself around the rock star. As they search for Gavin’s son, will the cross-country adventure give them exactly what they’ve been missing or send them packing?

Running with a Sweet Talker by Jami Albright

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She’s a take-no-prisoners fireball. He’s a sweet-talking charmer. It could be love…if they don’t kill each other first.
Hotshot lawyer Luanne Price may not believe in happily ever after, but she’d do just about anything to earn her absentee father’s love. So when he waltzes back into her life with a plan for her to marry his business associate, she foolishly agrees. But on the wedding day, things go south. Fast. Luanne’s desperate to get away, even if that means hitching a cross-country ride with the infuriating Jack Avery.

Jack needs to get Luanne out of his system. He’ll watch her tie the knot and forget about her. Once she’s married to another man, then she’ll be off-limits forever. Solid plan. Until he spots her army-crawling through the bushes to escape the Wedding of the Season.

He knows he should let someone else deal with the runaway bride. But if there’s one thing Jack has never been able to do, it’s resist Luanne. Will their romance rev up on the open road, or will Jack and Luanne crash and burn?

All the things We Never Knew: Chasing the Chaos of Mental Illness by Sheila Hamilton

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Even as a reporter, Sheila Hamilton missed the signs as her husband David’s mental illness unfolded before her. By the time she had pieced together the puzzle, it was too late. Her once brilliant and passionate partner was dead within six weeks of a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, leaving his young daughter and wife without so much as a note to explain his actions, a plan to help them recover from their profound grief, or a solution for the hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt that they would inherit from him.

All the Things We Never Knew takes readers on a breathtaking journey from David and Sheila’s romance through the last three months of their life together and into the year after his death. It details their unsettling spiral from ordinary life into the world of mental illness, examines the fragile line between reality and madness, and reveals the true power of love and forgiveness.

Girl in Pieces by Kathleen Glasgow

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Charlotte Davis is in pieces. At seventeen she’s already lost more than most people lose in a lifetime. But she’s learned how to forget. The broken glass washes away the sorrow until there is nothing but calm. You don’t have to think about your father and the river. Your best friend, who is gone forever. Or your mother, who has nothing left to give you.

Every new scar hardens Charlie’s heart just a little more, yet it still hurts so much. It hurts enough to not care anymore, which is sometimes what has to happen before you can find your way back from the edge.

Chasing the Mockingbird: A Memoir of a Broken Mind by Jean Lufkin Bouler

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Chasing the Mockingbird is the story of my collapse into mental illness while doing research for a book about Harper Lee and To Kill a Mockingbird. If you’re interested in how a writer works, or new information about Harper Lee, or a personal struggle with mental illness, you might enjoy my book.
I had a life-long fascination with Harper Lee and Mockingbird because I grew up 40 miles from her hometown of Monroeville in south Alabama. She knew my parents. Her fame convinced me to become a writer and I joyously reported for 10 years at The Birmingham News. I began on the copy desk, going to work at 4 a.m. Later, as education reporter, I delved into stories with a passion that veered toward the edge of sanity.
After I left The News to become a stay-at-home mom, my interest in Ms. Lee became an obsession with tracing her path to fame. I take readers on a (literally) manic romp to New York where, in the archives of the public library, I read notes she had written, and to Monroeville, where I got locked in the famed courthouse. I spent weeks of frantic calls and faxes to set up a phone call with Gregory Peck, who rarely granted interviews, about his most-loved part.
When this project had brought me to a point of near exhaustion, my schizophrenic brother, in a mental institution’s halfway house, was diagnosed with lung cancer at 48. I desperately tried to find a place for him to die in peace. I succeeded but at a terrible price. As he gasped his last breath it was as though he had put his hand on my arm and said, “It’s your turn to be crazy now.” Madness quietly took me into his world of delusions and paranoia.
I plunged into depression then soared into mania. I landed on a locked ward, facing my own commitment hearing. Antipsychotic drugs pulled me back to reality – twice. And what if side effects of high cholesterol and diabetes develop? My psychiatrist said, “We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.”

Graphic Design: The New Basics by Ellen Lupton and Jennifer Cole Phillips

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How do designers get ideas? Many spend their time searching for clever combinations of forms, fonts, and colors inside the design annuals and monographs of other designers’ work. For those looking to challenge the cut-and-paste mentality, there are few resources that are both informative and inspirational. In Graphic Design: The New Basics, Ellen Lupton, best-selling author of such books as Thinking with Type and Design It Yourself, and design educator Jennifer Cole Phillips refocus design instruction on the study of the fundamentals of form in a critical, rigorous way informed by contemporary media, theory, and software systems. Through visual demonstrations and concise commentary, The New Basics shows students and professionals how to build interest and complexity around simple relationships between formal elements of two-dimensional design such as point, line, plane, scale, hierarchy, layers, and transparency. The New Basics explains the key concepts of visual language that inform any work of design from a logo or letterhead to a complex web site. It takes a fresh approach to design instruction by emphasizing visually intensive, form-based thinking in a manner that is in tune with the latest developments in contemporary media, theory, art, and technology. Colorful, compact, and clearly written, The New Basics is the new indispensable resource for anyone seeking a smart, inspiring introduction to graphic design and destined to become the standard reference work in design education.

Design is Storytelling by Ellen Lupton 

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Good design, like good storytelling, brings ideas to life. The latest book from award-winning writer Ellen Lupton is a playbook for creative thinking, showing designers how to use storytelling techniques to create satisfying graphics, products, services, and experiences. Whether crafting a digital app or a data-rich publication, designers invite people to enter a scene and explore what’s there. An intriguing logo, page layout or retail space uses line, shape, and form to lead users on dynamic journeys.

Lettering and Modern Calligraphy: A Beginner’s Guide

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Learn to letter and create beautiful designs with this beginner’s guide and workbook! Every page is filled with tips, tricks encouragement and practice space to kickstart your lettering journey! Learn 5 different alphabet styles, upper and lower case letters, practice connections and dive into design and composition with this beautiful lettering book. At the end of this book, there are also 15 beautiful lettering projects to help you bring together your knowledge and skill and help you begin to create beautiful works of art! You can do this!! Let us teach you how to upgrade your handwriting and learn this amazing and fun form of art The Book Contains: Learn five different alphabet styles Upper and lower case letters Detailed instructions 15 beautiful lettering projects.

Graphic Design School by David Dabner

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“Graphic Design School” allows students to develop core competencies while understanding how these fundamentals translate into new and evolving media. With examples from magazines, websites, books, and mobile devices, the Fifth Edition provides an overview of the visual communications profession, with a new focus on the intersection of design specialties. A brand-new section on web and interactivity covers topics such as web tools, coding requirements, information architecture, web design and layout, mobile device composition, app design, CMS, designing for social media, and SEO.

Pitch Black by Elise Noble 

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Diamond’s on the hunt for her husband’s killer when a phone call orders her to stop looking or people will die—her friends, her colleagues, anyone close to her. Unable to think straight, she decides to disappear, protecting her team as well as her sanity while she tries to heal.

With her expert training in security and special ops, Diamond soon loses herself in the English countryside, tending horses and biding her time. As Ashlyn Hale, she meets Luke, a handsome local who makes her realise just how lonely she is.

Yet, even in England, the dark side of life dogs Diamond’s trail when the unthinkable strikes. Forced out of hiding, she races against time to save those she cares about. But is it too little, too late?

If I Break by Portia Moore

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When I met Cal Scott, I knew he’d be a distraction.

At six-foot-two, with ebony hair, deep gray eyes, and a smile that could only hide an agenda, I knew he was trouble. And for the first time in my life, a little trouble was just what I needed.

No. What I wanted.

It wasn’t like I’d ever marry the guy.
Until I did.

What I thought would be my happily ever after, was only the beginning. Cal has a secret. One that makes loving him come with a price, and being his wife cost more than I bargained for.

Sweetbitter by Stephanie Danler

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Newly arrived in New York City, twenty-two-year-old Tess lands a job as a “backwaiter” at a celebrated downtown Manhattan restaurant. What follows is the story of her education: in champagne and cocaine, love and lust, dive bars and fine dining rooms, as she learns to navigate the chaotic, enchanting, punishing life she has chosen. As her appetites awaken—for food and wine, but also for knowledge, experience, and belonging—Tess finds herself helplessly drawn into a darkly alluring love triangle. In Sweetbitter, Stephanie Danler deftly conjures with heart-stopping accuracy the nonstop and high-adrenaline world of the restaurant industry and evokes the infinite possibilities, the unbearable beauty, and the fragility and brutality of being young in New York.

The Fates Divide by Veronica Roth 

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Fate brought them together. Now it will divide them.

The lives of Cyra Noavek and Akos Kereseth are ruled by their fates, spoken by the oracles at their births. The fates, once determined, are inescapable.

Akos is in love with Cyra, in spite of his fate: He will die in service to Cyra’s family. And when Cyra’s father, Lazmet Noavek—a soulless tyrant, thought to be dead—reclaims the Shotet throne, Akos believes his end is closer than ever.

As Lazmet ignites a barbaric war, Cyra and Akos are desperate to stop him at any cost. For Cyra, that could mean taking the life of the man who may—or may not—be her father. For Akos, it could mean giving his own. In a stunning twist, the two will discover how fate defines their lives in ways most unexpected.

There it is! Every lovely book on my wish list. I love adding new things so I’d love to know what’s on your wish lists! I’d also love to know if you’ve read any of these books!

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I think I Can I Think I Can

Hey Nerdy Peeps! I know, I know, I’ve missed quite a few days on this May Blogging Challenge. So, I’m going to mix it up a little bit and go back to day six. So, let me tell you about my favorite childhood book.

The Little Engine That Could

You know that lovely saying, I think I can, I think I can. Well, it happens to be a quote in my favorite childhood book about a little blue engine. This isn’t just a book that teaches a lesson to children about not giving up, but it also teaches a lesson that no matter how small you are you can do big things. It can also teach adults the same lessons.

This will be a book I will read to my children and a book that I hope they will pass on to their children. Also, the cover is adorable!

I think I can I think I can


The story of a train filled with toys and gifts for little boys and girls that breaks down before reaching the children. After asking several passing trains for help over the hill, a little blue train agrees to help the stranded toys. Even though she is small, the blue train tries her best to bring the toys to the children on the other side of the hill.

I think I can I think I can

So, here it is day 6 on day 7. Bare with me, I will get back on track starting tomorrow. You will love this book just as much as I and your children will love it too!

Here is Challenge Day 1!

Falling Through Darkness Is Live!

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Title: Falling Through Darkness
Author: Kira Berger
Genre: Romantic Suspense
Release Date: May 4, 2018
One bad decision
changed my life irrevocably.
One night shattered it completely.
Moving to another country was supposed to be a fresh start for me, an escape
from my past. A way to heal and live my life. I promised them to find
happiness. What I wasn’t supposed to find was him. Dark, handsome, and

He wasn’t supposed to break through the walls around my heart. But I wasn’t
strong enough to resist.

For a minute, I was happy. But the clutches of my past will never let me go.
The evil shrouding my past in darkness has finally found me.

I need to fight it—for him and them. Even if that means letting go of the

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falling through darkness is live
I stare at
the sunrise above the ocean through the tiny plane window next to me. The
beautiful orange, red, and golden glow gives me a sense of peace I haven’t felt
in a long time. I watch as the sun slowly bathes the world in its warmth,
greeting a new day, a new beginning—seemingly giving me a chance to start anew.
While I
watch as in the distance a new day breaks, I muse about what lies before me. I
have never been afraid of jumping into the unknown—be it studying abroad by
myself, traveling the world, or falling in love. But that was the old me—the
young, carefree person who’s never been touched by darkness.
Being from
a small town in south-east France, moving to the city or even a foreign country
is something everyone fantasized about. I’ve lived in London for years, but the
dream has been to live in America, the country my mother left behind as a
twenty-five-year-old orphan. I just wish the circumstances of why I’m finally
moving weren’t so dire.
Europe behind is freeing, yet scary nonetheless.
The last
month has passed by in a blur. Once I realized I couldn’t stay where I was, I
reached out to one of my teachers from an exchange year I spent in Chicago who
I kept in touch with. It’s been a whirlwind and for once luck was on my side;
he had a friend, who’s a high school principal in a Philadelphia suburb, one
who was in dire need of an English teacher. Apparently, the previous teacher
suddenly moved away due to a family emergency. While it’s sad for her, for me
it couldn’t have been more perfect. And after a two-hour Skype interview with
Mr. Harris, I accepted the job offer. I left Europe within three weeks.
The sudden
descent of the plane brings be me back to the present. Judging from the seat
belt sign blinking on, I guess we’re about to land. Finally. While I love
flying, I’m ready to be back on solid ground and out of this flying tin can.
Half an
hour later, we safely touch down at the international airport in Philadelphia.
Going through customs takes forever, like always.
Most of my
stuff fits into two suitcases. Everything with emotional value is in them,
along with my clothes and important documents. Everything else, I’ve left
behind. They don’t matter since the things killing me not to have with me
aren’t earthly possessions anyway.
lucky break has been finding an apartment which comes furnished. Mr. Harris has
been amazing with accommodating me. Not just with finding me a place to stay,
but also having the previous English teacher give me her lesson plans for the
first couple of months.
Seeing my
two cases come around the belt, I move to the front to grab them. Rolling them
back to the cart, I heave them onto it, trying to keep the stupid thing from
moving away from me. I really wish they’d have a lock on the wheels to make
sure they stay immobile.
When I
finally manage to get myself organized with my luggage, I’m breathing heavily.
Wow, I guess I should start exercising. One day soon, I tell myself my
ever-present lie.
I move
toward the exit and walk into the sweltering Pennsylvania summer heat. Fucking
hell, why did no one tell me the humidity here is this crazy? One step outside
and I’m sweating already.
I am
looking around for a cab when I hear my name being called, “Alex!”
Startled, I
look around, trying to figure out who yelled my name. I’m shocked to see my old
professor stand before me with a cheeky grin on his face.
“What are
you doing here, Tom?”
he replies, “I was in the area. You know Luna has family out here, so we
thought we’d come out to celebrate Labor Day with them.”
I have to
snort at this. It’s rather pathetic how bad of a liar he still is. They came
out here so that I wouldn’t arrive and be alone my first weekend; the smirk he
can’t hide shows this clear as day. I guess it’s their good fortune they have
family in Philly and we can all pretend this is why they’re here.
Makes it
“Of course,
you do. How is the wife anyway? How come she isn’t part of this welcome
I smile at
the thought of Luna. While Tom is your stereotypical professor with elbow
patches and glasses, his wife is the complete opposite. I guess the best way to
describe her is free-spirited. Or a hippie. I’m pretty sure she used to have
dreads at some point in her past.
both teachers at the University of Illinois. Tom is the head of the education
department, while Luna is the head of Women’s Studies. Quite the pair, but it
seems to work perfectly. Luna always used to tell me Tom’s the calm to her
I am
extremely lucky to have met them, no doubt about it. Luna and I developed a
friendship during one of her classes that went beyond the classroom. She ended
up inviting me to holidays and weekend excursions. I know, it sounds weird, but
when you are alone in a different country you welcome a setting that reminds
you of your family. Plus, turkey for Thanksgiving at their place was a lot
better than eating alone in my dorm room.
well. She had a meeting with her publisher in New York today. You know for her
new book coming out soon?” At my nod, he continues, “Also, she told me to tell
you, she’s insisting you come with us to the party tomorrow.” Lifting a hand,
he halts any protests he knows are coming. “Don’t even start, you know she’ll
just come and force you to join us anyway.”
I sigh,
he’s right. There is no way I’ll get out of this one. “Fine.”
“Great. Now
get in here and give me a hug. I haven’t seen you in ages! Skype just isn’t the
same.” Without waiting for me to move, Tom steps forward and hugs me hard.
“I’m so
sorry, girl,” he whispers.
My arms
involuntary squeeze him tight. “I’m all right,” I lie.
I move out
of his embrace and clear my throat. I don’t do well with emotions. I was never
one of those people who can show them easily to begin with, and the last few
years only made it worse.
shall we go then, driver,” I joke to defuse the emotionally laden situation.
ma’am,” he says with a laugh. “Let’s go. My car is this way.” He points
straight ahead.
We walk
across the street toward a black Jeep Grand Cherokee. Whistling through my
teeth, I tease him, “Damn. An SUV. Do you hate our planet that much?”
“Be nice.
It’s what they gave us when we arrived. Not even joking, it was the last one
left. Luna wasn’t impressed either. She already gave me shit for two hours
afterward. Please, spare me.”
“All right,
all right, all right,” I give my best Matthew McConaughey impression, causing
Tom to laugh out loud, drawing the eye of the people around us.
impersonation skills have not gotten any better over the years.”
I place my
hand over my heart in mock hurt. “Hey! Are you saying my practicing was all for
much. I’m surprised you aren’t talking like some posh snob from England anyway.
That’s pretty impressive.” The laughter leaving me at his comment is something
I haven’t done in months. I’ve lived in England for six years, so it’s not such
a stretch to imagine I’d end up with an accent. “Yeah, I worked hard to avoid sounding
like a Brit. My mom spent too much time teaching me one accent to lose it.”
After we
load my luggage into the trunk, I move to the passenger door, while admiring
the interior.
“You know,”
I say while getting comfortable, “while I hate the amount of gas this car uses
and the deteriorating effect it has on the environment, it’s a really nice one.
I love this leather interior—it’s comfortable.”
reminds me, have you figured out what you’ll do about a car? You know this is
America, not London.” He smirks at me. “You can’t rely on public transport to
go anywhere unless you live in the city.”
yeah. I’m aware. I don’t even know how far the apartment is from work, but I have
a feeling I’ll need to drag my ass out of bed tomorrow and go lease one.” I
sigh, already dreading the experience.
“How about
I come with you. The party isn’t until three anyway. We’ll go to a dealership
in the area in the morning. How does that sound?”
it sounds amazing. Thank you. I was not looking forward to it. I hate car
shopping. So, I appreciate the help.” I smile at Tom gratefully. “Even though I
will say it wasn’t necessary; I’m grateful you came out this weekend.”
family, girl. Luna thinks of you as a little sister, especially after what you
did for us—for Luna. We’ll never forget it and will never be able to repay you.”
I avert my
eyes, looking out the window while trying to blink back the tears. “I did what
anyone would have done. All I did was drive Luna to the hospital and sit with
her while we waited for you.”
“Alex,” he
says with a heavy sigh and places a hand on my arm. “You did a lot more than
just sit with her. If not for you, she’d have been alone, sitting on a cold and
empty hospital bed mourning the baby we’d just lost, waiting for me to get
there. You were her lifeline, telling her funny stories of your brother and all
the shenanigans you two got up to. You were there when she needed someone the
I look at
him, my chest filling with emotions I’m unused to. It was a mixture of
gratitude, love, and… belonging. “Then I’m glad I was there to give her some
comfort during a horrible time.” I try to smile, but I know I fail miserably
since I can feel my lip wobbling.
“Me too,
honey. Me too. And you know, we’re here in case you need to talk about—”
“I don’t,”
I interrupt abruptly, my tone sharp. I don’t ever want to talk about what
happened. The past is going to stay buried deep in the abyss of my
consciousness. “I’m fine. I don’t need to talk about anything. Let the past
stay where it belongs.”
He looks at
me for a moment. And by the way he’s rolling his lip between his teeth, and the
intensity in his eyes, I can tell he’s trying to see behind my mask. I’m not
sure what he sees, but thankfully he lets it go.
Shaking his
head, he straightens in his seat and turns the ignition. “Can you program your
new address into the GPS? I don’t want to end up getting lost in the hills of
Looking at
the gadget in front of me, I decide to give it the good ol’ try. I’m sure it
can’t be that difficult. “Sure, let’s do this.”


falling through darkness is live
Author Bio
Kira Berger
is a child of the world with a severe case of wanderlust. She’s lived in both
North America and Europe. Currently, she’s living in London and enjoys
everything the diverse city has to offer.

always been a dreamer and closet romantic. And after obtaining her MA in
English and Publishing, she finally decided to bring the stories floating
around in her head and distracting her from real life onto paper.

If she’s
not writing or working – which is pretty much most of the time – she can be
found reading, traveling all over the world to visit friends, cuddle with her
cat, or ride on the back of her horse through the countryside, preferably
during the winter months.


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