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It’s OK Not to be Perfect

Hey Nerdy Peeps! I keep seeing this quote float around on my Instagram and my Pinterest and it made me think about life. I know that sounds pretty cliché but it’s true. Let me tell you about this quote and why it’s OK not to be perfect. 

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It’s OK not to be perfect…

So, if you’re anything like me with your mental health journey, you think you have to be perfect all the time. Well, I’m here to tell you that you’re lying to yourself. Sweetheart no one is perfect and it’s pretty much impossible to be perfect. And that’s OK! Really, it is. I’m going to give you five reasons why I’m not perfect so you know it’s OK. 

I’m late to work almost every day…

Yep, you read that right. I don’t give myself enough time to get up and get ready to make it out the door on time. So, that means I am usually wearing my hair in a ponytail, no makeup, and I’m in jeans and a t-shirt. Trust me I wish I looked more professional at work, but my snooze habit limits my time. 

I hate cleaning…

My couch is flooded with clothes, and there is probably 10 dogs worth of dog hair that needs to be swept up in my living alone. I still have clean dishes waiting to be put away in my dishwasher. But you know what that’s ok because eventually they will get put away and my clothes will be folded. I just hate doing it. 

I am always finding ways to procrastinate…

Being a writer means I have lots of deadlines, and I have never missed one. That does mean I usually wait until almost the last second to get some things done. Same goes for most of the things I need to get done, but by some miracle I get them done on time. 

I am not always positive…

Nope, you might think I am but I can be a big negative Nancy. There are just somethings that happen in my life that don’t need positivity. I always thought that always being positive would get me one step closer to perfectionism, but I will probably never reach perfectionism. 

I am me…

Now you’re probably thinking well yeah you are, but what does that have to do with anything? Well, you see, I was made in God’s image and God doesn’t make perfect people. I mean Jesus wouldn’t have died for our sins if we were perfect. So that’s why I am me. I’m just a girl trying to live her life one day at a time and trust me it’s far from perfect. 

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So, you see it’s perfectly Ok not to be perfect. (See what I did there.) Anyway, we all have our flaws and we all choose to live with them differently. Some of us will try to hide them, and some of us will flaunt what God gave us with no care in the world. My challenge for you is to stop trying to reach perfection. Just be you. 

 

Mental Health Awareness Month

Hey Nerdy Peeps! I failed at the May blogging challenge and I’m ok with that. You see life has a way of getting in the way and it changes things for me. So, I decided to talk to you today. I’m going to tell you about all of the things that are bugging me. In the light of Mental Health Awareness Month, everyone needs a voice and I want to share mine with you.


My Voice

I’m struggling lately. Like really struggling. My body is exhausted. My mind is exhausted. I can’t explain it but I feel like I’m falling apart. Now, physically I feel fine, other than needing sleep. Mentally I feel overly drained, but I am hanging in there. Despite feeling exhausted, and drained I am doing things that I love to keep my mind off of everything.

So, do you want to know what those things are? Maybe they can help you get through some of the crappy mental health issues you’re trying to fight.

I’ve been painting. It’s really relaxing and I’m learning that I’m pretty good at it.

I am writing like a crazy person. Have you ever had so many stories that you need to get out on paper? Well, I have and it’s hard to keep track of them all, but it has also been a lot of fun.

Books are becoming my greatest escape. I’m listening to Smoke by T.M. Frazier, I am reading Eden by Elle Ward and Streetlamps to Starlight by various authors! (Review coming soon)


Now my biggest distraction happens to be my business. I have finally decided to start a graphic design business call Nerdy Designs by Jessie. I have been creating all kinds of fun graphics and I can’t seem to stop! I have gained my first client and helped her re-brand her business and I loved doing it.

Here is some of my work!

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Mental Health Awareness month is a big deal to me. It teaches me a lot about my mental health and what can help it. Do your research and learn what you can for your mental health or for others you know who deal with mental health issues.

What’s New this Year for This Nerdy Girl: Meditation and More

Hey Nerdy Peeps! I have been up to some new and exciting things that I want to share with you. They have helped me more than I thought they would and maybe you can take the leap too! (And huge thanks to my friend Zoey for the title help!)


Meditation and More

Four days ago I started meditating, and it was the best decision I have ever made. I have felt way more relaxed and have so much more energy. Now, the app I have been using recommends that I meditate in the morning, but I decided to try it at night to see if it will help me sleep. I am so glad I did. So, let me list the top three benefits that I have experienced!

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  1. Better focus during the day
    • I have been able to focus on a lot more and it’s made working and writing so much easier.
  2. I sleep so much better!
    • Sleep used to suck for me. I could never seem to get a good deep sleep in for the night, but after meditating I am able to sleep well at night. My energy levels are up, and I don’t get sleepy through the day.
  3. It calms my mind which in return calms my anxiety.
    • This makes it easier to stop stressing over all the thoughts running through my head. I’ve also learned that it helps me filter through my thoughts during the day instead of letting them weigh me down.

So, you’re probably wondering which app I have been using. I have been using a free app called Headspace, and I love it! I started with the beginner’s program and it’s perfect. All the other apps I looked at either wanted money up front or just seemed too complex for what I was looking for. Headspace was the best app for what I was looking for. 10 minutes a day with guided meditation, and animations to go with some days. The animations make it easier to understand what you are learning and they have helped a lot. This app saved my crazy mind and I can’t wait to continue my journey.


Here comes the more

Himalayan Salt Lamp 

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This lamp is amazing. The benefits are truly the best and I use it every time I am reading in bed or getting my meditation on.

The facts! (These are found from other sites and the box from my lamp)

  1. Cleanses and deodorizes the air
    • I have seen a difference in my allergies, even though the house I live in isn’t sealed the best.
  2. Improve mood & concentration
    • This has been so true for this lamp. I have been able to focus on a single thing I am doing, and it’s amazing. My mind doesn’t wander and I can get things done.
  3. Better sleep
    • When I use this during my meditation it seems to help my relaxation and makes it easier for better sleep.

No sodas 

I know this is a shocker! Well, maybe not to you, but it is to me. I used to have one Dr. Pepper a day, sometimes two, but not anymore. It’s been water, juice, or sweet tea. I can feel the benefits of giving them up, and even though I miss them, I’m glad they are gone.

Healthier lunches 

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Yep, I am jumping on the healthy food bandwagon. I’m not big on food prep so I thought what would be a good alternative? I headed to the frozen food section at Wal-Mart and looked at the healthy foods section and decided to go with Smart Ones and Lean Cuisine. So, those are on the lunch menu for next week. I’ll keep ya posted on what I think!

Check out for my New Years Resolutions here!


There ya go peeps! These are all the new things I am starting for the New Year! What bandwagons have you jumped on? How are they helping you?

Book Review of The Second Cup

Hey Nerdy Peeps! Today I am bringing you a book review of The Second Cup. This one was a hard hit for me and all the emotions felt so real. So, let’s get onto the review.


The Second Cup by Sarah Marie Graye

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As someone who deals with a mental health journey on a daily basis, I didn’t think this book would hit me as hard as it did, boy was I wrong. This book was the most beautifully written mental health book I have ever read. To see what every character is going through after finding out their friend has killed themselves is an emotional roller coaster that I didn’t mind going on.

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Each character goes on their own emotional journey to get through the death of their friend. Faye goes on a trip to find Jack’s friend, Abbie questions anything and everything, Olivia starts to wonder what’s going to happen next, and Beth, well Beth just wants to escape the pain.

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Graye does an amazing job of pulling you into every page through all the women’s emotions. I wasn’t sure I would be able to get through the book because of my own mental health journey, but I am so happy I did. This book was an eye-opener that shows how one tragedy can lead to so many different emotional journeys.

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Book Blurb: Would your life unravel if someone you knew committed suicide? Theirs did.

University was years ago, but Faye’s heart still belongs to her first love from her days as a student. She knows Jack might have moved on, but when she decides to try and track him down nothing prepares her for the news that he’s killed himself.

With the fragility of life staring them in the face, Abbie finds herself questioning her marriage and Faye her friendship with Ethan. And poor Olivia is questioning everything – including why Jack’s death has hit Beth the hardest. Is she about to take her own life too? (Goodreads)

Sarah Marie Graye

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Sarah Marie Graye was diagnosed with depression aged 9 and with ADHD aged 42. She believes mental health issues have shaped her whole life – and they prompted her to write a novel so she could use fictional characters and a make-believe plot to explain the thoughts and feelings behind her mental health to others.

Sarah Marie has a Master’s degree in Creative Writing and her debut novel The Second Cup was longlisted for the Book Viral 2017 Millennium Book Award and made it into Read Freely’s Top 50 Indie Books 2017.

Facebook: Sarah Marie Graye

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Author Website: SarahMarieGraye


This is a must read even if you are struggling with your own mental health. If you pick it up please let me know your thought!

Conquering the Feeling of Worthlessness

Hey Nerdy Peeps! I am having one tough day with my depression, but I want to make it better. So, I thought, why not make a post about it. This feeling of worthlessness has got to go.


Conquering the Feeling of Worthlessness

I went to the doctor the other day and I got some not so great news about my weight. In fact, it’s the highest it has ever been and I’m disgusted. Yep, you read that right, I’m disgusted, and I need to fix it.

There are other factors that are weighing in on my feelings of worthlessness, and I need to fix those too. The feelings of worthlessness mixed with my depression is not a great feeling. I’m to the point where I want to stay in bed and forget everything. I want to stop feeling like I’m not a good person because my finances are crap. My house is messy and I have no motivation to clean it. Now, the news of my weight has me wanting nothing to do with anything.

So, what am I going to do?

Healthy Eating 

This is step one in my “conquering the feeling of worthlessness” plan! I am looking up healthy recipes, cutting out Dr. Peppers, and other bad food habits. I am going to get this weight under control.

Exercise

Yep, the dreaded bad word, but I am going to do it. I’m going to start off slow and at my own pace and when I get stronger I am going to better my routines. Losing weight is going to help me feel so much better about me. This is going to be a great journey.

Get Dave Ramsey’s Book…

The Total Money Makeover! I have great feelings about this book. Our finances need some major help and I am hoping this book will save our credit, and help us manage our money better.

Clean my house

I am going to start this one room at a time. I’m going to move things around, and deep clean anything and everything. The baseboards will be clean, the ceiling fans will be clean, and the blinds will also be spotless. It may take me a few days, but my house will be clean and beautiful. (Now, it’s not disgusting or terrible, it just needs to be deep cleaned!)

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I am not worthless

I am worthy of being the best I can be

My depression does not control me or my thoughts

From this day forward I will be a stronger me


What helps you when you are feeling worthless? I am always up for new tips!