Why My Self Doubt Makes Me Want to Scream!
I have a lot of things to work in my life, but the major thing would be my self-doubt.
I honestly, can barely write this post because my mind is telling me:
“No one will read it.”
“No one is going to care.”
“Why even bother?”
These negative thoughts, try to get the best of me and I try my hardest to ignore them but it’s hard! I get so lost in them, that my chest hurts, I have trouble breathing, and I almost want to cry. Like right now, I want to erase everything I’m typing and make up some happy-go-lucky post, that doesn’t really show what is going on in my head.
My Mind is Screaming at Me
It literally feels like my mind is screaming at me to not continue with this post today! It keeps repeating the same thing over and over. “Why bother?” “No one is going to read it.” “They aren’t going to care.” This is the ugliness of anxiety! It eats at you, tears you down, and almost makes it impossible to focus on the positive.
My hands are shaking, my breathing is getting heavier, and my mind is clouded with darkness! I need to stop, I need to give up! NO ONE WILL CARE!
Except I will care! I cannot give up! This disorder will not consume me! It will not define who I am. I have to keep going and I will fight my demons before it gets to be too late!
Just breathe, Jessie! Take a look around, can you see what’s grounded?
Breathe! In 4 seconds, hold 7 seconds, out 8 seconds! In 4 seconds, hold 7 seconds, out 8 seconds!
Not today anxiety! Not today! I’m gonna kick your butt and show you who is boss! You cannot control me, I control you!
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You’ll get a happy post tomorrow! How do you deal with self-doubt?